living free

Free from guilt
Free from the past
Free from Harm
Free from Fear
Free from being a victim
And
Free to become a victor!
Finally I am Free and Trusting God.
At first, it was so hard for me.
Hard for me to let it all go
And
Be Free.
I had gotten used to the idea of being
Beaten down, crushed, and dreams vanquished.
It was familiar.
And I didn’t want to change.
It gave me substance.
It gave me excuses.
It allowed me to cast blame on everything and everyone.
It allowed me to be irresponsible and unreliable.
I had an excuse
To yell at my husband,
To yell at my kids,
To come in late at work,
To not attend Church.
To cry all night long,
To sing the deceitful poor me pity me song.
I was raped.
I was abused.
I was mistreated.
I was used.
I was washed up.
I was cried out.
I was mentally mistreated.
And
Satan used all of the above to his advantage.
I just sat there and let him have his way.
I allowed him to
Come into my heart.
To come into my home.
To come between my family and friends.
I allowed Satan
To take away my joy.

I allowed Satan to take away my light.
I had refused
To take refuge in Christ.
I had accepted that this was me.
I had accepted to be bind in hate and anger.
I had become a person that lacked victory.
I allowed Satan to tell me that
I was not meant to be free.
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One day….
I found my self tired and exhausted.
On the verge of loosing my mind.
On the verge of loosing my family.
On the verge of loosing it all.
I was tried of fighting, tired of running.

Tired of living.

I wanted to end it all.

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But in the midst of my pain

I heard a strong yet gentle voice whispering in my ear

"Don't end it yet."
“Try me”
“Cast Your Cares and I will set you Free.”

So I tryed HIM for myself.
And
I declared PEACE!
Peace on my home, Peace on my Marriage, Peace on my kids, Peace on my friends,
Peace on my Job…
PEACE!
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I Thank God I am healed!
Thank you Lord, for dieing on the cross for me.
Thank you for washing me in your blood.
By your stripes
I am healed!
Healed from Every sin!
Healed from Every mistake!
Healed from Depression!
Healed from Addiction!
Healed from Poverty!
Healed from Affliction!
I casted my cares!
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It is all GONE!
Everything that anyone has ever done to me….
Gone!
Thank You God!
It's all gone!
The pain
GONE!
The hurt
GONE!
The guilt
GONE!
I let go of the past.
I let go of the victim mentality.
I hold on to God’s grace and mercy.
Praise God, I have been set Free!
Free of what my mother said, free of what my father said.
Free of what anyone has done to me.
Free from all the guilt.
Free from all the pain.
Thank You Lord for giving me another Chance!
Thank you oh Lord for giving me back

My Light.

My Life.
My Hope.
My Faith.

My Family

My Friends.

My Marriage.

Praise to the Glory on High, I am HEALED!
Thank You, Oh Lord, for giving me your Love!
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Ahhhh
Finally.
I am free.
Finally.
I am Me.
Finally.
I have let it all go.
Finally.
I can Praise the Lord!
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Psalm 150:1-6
{150:1} Praise ye the LORD. Praise God in his sanctuary: praise him in the firmament of his power.
{150:2} Praise him for his mighty acts: praise him according to his excellent greatness.
{150:3} Praise him with the sound of the trumpet: praise him with the psaltery and harp.
{150:4} Praise him with the tumbrel and dance: praise him with stringed instruments and organs.
{150:5} Praise him upon the loud cymbals: praise him upon the high sounding cymbals.
{150:6} Let every thing that hath breath praise the LORD. Praise ye the LORD.

As I write....

I sit and think tonight….my Heart is not heavy, my soul not afraid, my mind not weary. I sit here tonight and think, how bless I am to have God in my everyday life. I think of how blessed I am, even when all odds are stacked up against me, I know I have the unconditional love of Christ.
We are living in a time where everything is on the rise. Our heating cost has increased, our property tax has increased, our mortgage has increased, the cost of food has increased, general cost of living has increased…. But our pay stays the same. In these hard economic times, I Thank God even more… and find even more peace in Him.
As I am writing this, someone is getting kicked out of their home.
As I am writing this, someone’s home has been foreclosed against.
As I am writing this, someone is mourning a loved one.
As I am writing this, a child has to read in the dark.
As I am writing this, a parent is deeply depressed because they are unable to care for the family.
As I am writing this, someone has lost their job today. Not just an income, but the family’s life line of hope and prosperity.
As I am writing this, someone is battling an illness or a disease.
As I am writing this, someone is lonely, cold, scared, overwhelmed with regret, have given up on God, their faith, love and hope.
As I am writing this, someone is depressed and thinking about ending their life.

As I am writing this, I thank God for the many blessings I have RIGHT NOW! Because I know, while I am writing this, It could have been, should have been, ME. While I am writing this, I could have lost my job today. While I am writing this, I could have lost my home today. I could have a hungry family, dirty clothes, no car, and no hope, scared, depressed and thinking about ending my life. While I am writing this, I could be battling cancer; I could be mourning for a friend or a love one…. I could be lost and never know hope.

But, God picked me up…. He tells me that He loves me, He cherishes me, and He wants me to be forever with Him now, while I am on this earth so that I can spend eternity with him. He tells me, if I am thirsty, He will give me living water…. He tells me I can not live off of bread alone, but I must also live off His Word! He tells me if I am sick and want to get better, I have to take up my bed and walk! He tells me that food is not what defiles a me, but it is the words that come out of my mouth that defiles me. He tells me to cast my cares on him. He tells me that he did not come to condemn the world but came so the world might be saved through him.
So, while I am writing this, I think God for saving me! While I am writing this, I am not hungry. While I am writing this, I am in my home, I have a job, I have lights, I have water, and I have the undying and unchanging love of Jesus Christ!

No matter how bad your situation may seem it could always be worse. As long as you keep the Love of Christ in your heart, he WILL protect you. Stand on his promise to you... know that what He has bless you with was not for you to be glorified by others.. but for others to Glorify and Follow Him. He has set you apart, He put you here to be an example, He put you here to bring hope, peace, guidense, love, unselfishness, positivity, motivation...He put you here to bring others to Him. We are all HIS children.. we are here to help one another....

He will never forsake the righteous…. He will never leave you nor forsake you.

For this cause I bow my knees unto the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, of whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named. That he would grant you, according to the riches of his glory, to be strengthened with the might by his Spirit in the inner man; That Christ may dwell in your hearts by faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love, maybe able to comprehend with all saints what is the breadth, and length, and depth, and height; and to know the love of Christ, which passes knowledge, that you might be filled with all the fullness of God. Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that work in us, unto him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus throughout all ages, world without end. Amen.
Ephesians 3:14-21